Pikas sotsiaalmeediapostituses meenutab Goulding oma vanaisa, kes aastaid tagasi endalt elu võttis, vahendab Mirror.

"Ma soovin, et oleksin temaga rohkem rääkinud ning soovin, et meil oleks kasvõi natukene aimu olnud sellest, kui kurb ta tegelikult oli."

Teema kerkis üles seoses hoogu koguva kampaaniaga, milles mitmed staarid aitavad tõsta teadlikkust seoses vaimset tervist puudutavate probleemidega.

Goulding tunnistab, et ka temal endal on raskeid probleeme, millega iga päev tegelema peab. Lauljanna selgitab, et kuulub nende inimeste hulka, kellel on oma saavutuste üle raske uhkust tunda, kes ei usu endasse ning leiavad, et nad ei ole õnne väärt. Selle kõige tulemusena hakkab inimene alateadlikult oma tööd ja suhteid saboteerima.

Oma mõtete õiges suunas hoidmiseks teeb Goulding iga päev füüsilist trenni. "See tunne, kuidas veri mu veenides vohab ning viis, kuidas inimkeha on võimeline liikuma, meenutab pidevalt, kui lahe on elus olla."

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Sorry this is a little late, but I had to speak about about Mental Health Awareness, for what it’s worth. We all have a right to feel what we do, whatever it is, whoever we are- Exhilaration, madness, absolutely nothing at all, confusion, chronic sadness... (I can sometimes feel all these things in the space of a few days). I am beyond relieved that more light is being shone on the complexity of going from being a touring artist/ performer to going straight back to normality on a regular basis. The constant change of pace is sometimes just too much to bare. Thank you to those artists who have spoken so candidly about it lately. I know I chose this job but nothing could have prepared me for the ups and downs that come with it. I know for sure that a lot of my anxiety has come from what they call “imposter syndrome” not believing in myself enough and thinking that I don’t deserve happiness, which results in wanting to sabotage my own success. I keep my head straight by training every day (running and boxing mainly) and although it is so hard sometimes to be motivated, the feeling of blood pumping through my veins and a human body performing the way it so impressively does reminds me how cool it is to be alive. Today I’m thinking about my grandfather, who took his own life a few years back. I wish I had spoken to him more, and wish we could have had even the smallest clue of how unhappy he was. I admire those who get out of bed every morning and seize the day, even when they’re not feeling too great. That requires a lot of courage. Please know that you are doing amazingly and I’m proud of you. Ellie xx #mentalhealthawareness

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